One sleep to go......

  Its been a whirlwind few days since returning from Melbourne. Catching up with my local tribe. 

I was so busy I did not really have a lot of time to think, but by last night, think I did. I once again found myself doubting and wondering if I was doing the right thing, going off on holiday...leaving the country even without my kids.

I was pleasantly surprised though when as usual a couple of messages popped up in cyber world at just the right time.....reminding me that sometimes you need to let go...trust..and just do it..so I am focusing on dissolving those separation fears and making this a personal mission. Any supportive vibes would be very much appreciated. This really is a BIGGY for me.  The internal struggle has been immense and cloying, I am in much need of positive re-inforcement. Here are the words that grabbed me today and made me feel a little better...........

Your Spiritual Flame must be strong and not wobble, even when a hurricane of desire whooshes by.  - Simhananda

 

If when you look into your own heart , you find nothing wrong there , what is there to worry about , what is there to fear ? Confucius

So with that said, I am focussing today on packing, tying up loose ends, making sure my kids have enough food and of course leaving them with my tribal network as backup. :-) 

They are looking forward to their newfound independance! We are aiming to keep this break as computer free as possible so may not be online much at all. I have orders to check in on facebook by my oldest child but I am not sure how often we will do so. Depends on where we are. 

So if you don't hear from me, keep well and happy! I will see you on the other side!

 Adios Amigos!

Hugs and smoochies xoxoxox

Baby snuggles and more news....

Its been a lovely week of baby snuggles down here in Melbourne. In between snuggles we have managed to go out a couple of times and visit a couple of museums. The boys and I particularly liked the Melbourne museum which was much bigger, newer and more interesting than the one in Sydney. 

Not sure if its something in the air, but one of my friends also had her baby early while I was away. I can't wait to get home and meet her. You will have to wait to hear all about her though as she is yet to be named and of course I have not introduced her to my paparazzi skills as yet. :-) But Little Logan is getting quite used to them as you can see...

Its going to be a very busy weekend for me while I visit my home fleetingly. I have people to see and shopping to be done and then I am going to leave my children for two whole weeks and fly to Bali where some friends are going to show us around! From what I can gather there will be surfing, shopping, sight seeing and of course crochet!!!

I have to admit that up until yesterday I was having second thoughts and really worried about making this big move to go so far away from them, but you know what? It suddenly hit me that they are way old enough and I really need to un-attach myself a little.  And besides, this holiday is way overdue. I am really excited and can't wait to spend some time with my man on our own without running around after someone else for a little while. 

And after one more day here of baby snuggles I will be flying home. I am sure going to miss this beautiful little boy......wish he lived a little closer to the rest of the family...sigh..

Not sure how often I will be checking in here the next few weeks. Will try to keep in touch. 

Hugs and smoochies xoxoxox

Harry Who?

With all the Harry Potter madness today, I thought I would link back to an old post for memories sake and because I thought Kei might like it.   Click here to check it out!

And for those who prefer cute over fantasy........well......there is plenty of cute down here....

Hugs and smoochies all xoxoxox

Time flies when there is a new baby to snuggle...

Wow, how the time flies.....we have spent the past few days in Melbourne with my sister and her precious new baby boy Logan.....He is so adorable and after a few rocky days of learning to drink and battling a bit of jaundice..this morning he looks so much more content and happy with his new found friend...mama's milk...its good...he has decided...very good.  Last night, finally he and his mama got a bit of sleep.........

The expressions of a newborn are priceless! Yesterday when his daddy gave him a bath, he was not impressed to begin with...he really does not like having his clothes off and he decided to complain a bit before enjoying the soaking immensely....

 

Seriously dad! You are in big trouble mister! 

Of course...once it was all over and he had a feed and cuddle with his mama, he slept like a dream.....

I am so loving hanging out with my new nephew this week. I think I am going to miss him a lot when I go home! Hope all is well in your neck of the woods! 

Hugs and smoochies xoxoxoxo

Introducing......

One very impatient little man who did not wait for his Aunty K to get there to hold his mama's hand.......arriving a few weeks early but safe and sound! So travel plans have been changed and we are flying down to Melbourne today to meet the little sweetheart. Everybody is very proud and excited over his early arrival. (Photo courtesy of his daddy's facebook page so please excuse the blurriness. Will try and post some clearer shots after we meet him in person. 

Baby Logan

I can't wait to hold him and hug my little sister! 

I saw a little video of him today and heard him cry, so adorable! 

Hugs and smoochies all xoxox

Friends? Who are they?

So as I was saying the other day, I have been thinking far too much lately. Yesterday, someone said something to me that had me thinking a little more. She said (among other things), basically that the internet is evil and that you could not make "real friendships" online.

Ahem! I beg to differ! I pointed out that actually, I had quite a few friends online, to which she replied "NO you really don't know them! If you met them in real life it would be quite different!" (Yeah it would be, I would actually be able give them a REAL hug!)

Of course my thinking went into overdrive as I pondered on my online friendships over the years! Some come and go! Some are there for a little while, then they disappear. Some of them even pop back once in a while just to let you know they are still alive. The rest of them are on facebook (haha!). The ones that count are always there as a constant, even if they are silent for a while. I know them, they know me! We know we love each other.....Who needs the frills?

While all this going on, she continued with...." Well, if you met them in real life like those online dating people who write, write, write and turn up and dislike each other on sight...it just would not work"!!"

Well considering I have no plans of dating any of you in the near future, I think I am pretty safe on that score! I did however correct her again. Actually, I have met, in person quite a few of my online friends over the year. I have liked every single one of them.  Because, quiet frankly, if I did not feel right about it, I would not have wanted to meet them in the first place. And in fact when Gemma went over to Miami for three weeks recently, she spent all of an hour or so at the hostel she had booked to stay in before her dear (online) friend Mario (who she met online at about age 12) and his friends came and picked her up. She spent her whole holiday staying in her own room at his house, being loved and cared for by his family and friends for the whole time. She was also armed with phone numbers of one of my very dearest blog friends and distant family members she has by the way, never met!

As I watched her eyes raise with horror and then amazement that I had actually let my daughter do this. She then complimented us on raising such an independant child. LOL She really is the loveliest person, she is just set in her ways and does not like the internet.

Really, we could go through life never knowing couldn't we? Never trusting, never giving of ourselves, never learning all the wonderful things we learn from each other! Nope, I could not fathom that! I am sticking to my guns on this one! I love my online friends! How about you?

Do you consider yourself one of my REAL friends? Do you trust in your own instinct enough to know who your friends are? I hope so my friends, I sure hope so!

Much love to all in the real world and the internet world. You are all REAL to me!

Big hugs and smoochies xoxoxoxo

Where did that week go?

Oh my! I have been meaning to post and write and post and you know at least say something this week in a meaningful or geez even a mindless fashion. But, and here is the but... I started out this past week on a bit of an OFF vibe.

Someone in their ultimate wisdom told me it was "school holidays"! Not that we go to school or anything like that but you know...the word "holiday" got me thinking...Ooooooh ... instead of like following the kids around and pandering to their every needs, maybe I could get some things done around here that need doing, that have caught up with me and then I could maybe do a lot of soul soothing crafting and a lot of writing or have fun or something! Oh the possibilities were endless! I had big plans I tell you, big plans!

So I thought, on Monday morning...I shall stay in bed and read a book...priorities you know..if one is going to "holiday" first one must be relaxed. So while my lazy boys snored upstairs, I opened up my bedroom blinds and windows to let the glorious winter sunshine in, (climbed back under the doona, as the air was a bit crisp) sipped my coffee and prepared to be lost in fiction bliss for an hour or so. And it was pure bliss I tell you, pure bliss...until...

My "holiday" bubble was soon burst as my hubby comes home from the beach with his friend who informs me...Ummm....its NOT holidays till next week you know? ....Huh? .......Woops! Yep the school was pretty full down the road...((((LA LA LA LA...Im not listening!))))......oh well..."KIDS!!! Its not holidays! Quick do some work!" LMAO

Of course by now they were totally ingrossed in Deadly Sixty on the TV and there was no moving them. Gotta love these edumacational tv shows don't you? Anywho, after a 2 second conference, they decided that is WAS holidays as far as they were concerned and hey, who was I to argue? I mean really, I had plans!

So needless to say, they have spent the last week, sleeping in, playing online games, watching tv, going to the movies and eating! Thats about it! (Shameful parenting...I know..but hey..Im on holidays...well...sort of!) I still had to cook and clean and do all that stuff and as I was saying, I had great plans of getting "stuff" done!

Of course in my usual manner, while the time was available for writing, I simply did not feel like it! I did not really get on the computer much at all. I spent a lot of time crocheting, knitting, reading, even a bit of studying. Harvested some herbs, did some cooking, cleaned out one of my older girls old bedrooms ready to fix up as Gemma wants to move into that room for a while. Cleaned out my old craft room (which had turned into a huge messy storage space) and turned it into a craft, book, storage room with a big table for the boys, plan being to bring their computers down out of their rooms (thats not going so well so far as they are rather attached to their "life supports" there, and clearly they are on "holidays" LOL) AND I tidied up the old sewing room, moved all my books and craft stuff into there so its accessible and easy to get my hands on immediately! I must say, its most lovely not to have to wade through all the boys stuff to find it now. In my usual fashion, I did everything to avoid tackling the intended end of year taxes! So we will take another weeks holidays so I can get that out of the way too! hehe! And maybe, just maybe, I can fit in some writing and catch up on my herbal ally challenges which are way behind right now. Ahh yes! Once again...I have plans! Famous last words!

I am sorry I have not had a lot of time to visit or leave comments. I have read quite a few of your posts but have either been on my phone so did not comment or in a hurry. I have come to the conclusion I probably won't be able to catch up with everyone so please forgive me. I have had quite a lot on my mind lately, hence my lack of writing enthusiasm. We also have a lot of travel plans for the near future. I am trying to wrap my head around fitting it all in and how its all going to flow.

First I am flying to Melbourne with the boys to await the birth of my sisters baby, combined with a lot of homeschooly type excursions, then maybe flying over to Bali, alone! Yikes. SB is thinking of going over first and then I will meet him when I can. Did I ever mention my fear of heights? Flying is not something I would choose to do, thats for sure. (There is also the BIG factor of leaving ones children behind, as my long time readers will know, its just not something I am comfortable doing. And yes I know they are all big now but still, its freaks me out.)

In October we have booked a holiday already to visit all those noisy theme parks in QLD (the kids choice of the perfect holiday! They did not like the Bali idea at all) so we are going to be busy busy busy for a while. Considering I have rarely travelled in my life, this is all a bit much for me all at once. I am looking forward to the experience but know I am going to be missing my animals and my garden etc.

Anyway, as you can see, lots of thinking, planning and sorting still to be done! I wonder if I could just stay on "holiday" till further notice? Hmmmm....

And yes, I know many would just love to have such dilemmas on their back as there are far worse things to worry about. I also have a few other things on my mind that are not for public sharing as they involve others. To these matters I am centring my utmost focus on healing energies and love and a lot of praying too. For those who are sick, I send you healing light and love and praying on your behalf, to those who are sad, I hope you can find your centre and your peace. I am with you, even if you don't know it.

For the rest of you! Hope your lives are far less complicated right now! Much love and peace to all.

Hugs and smoochies xoxoxox