2012 - New Beginnings......

HELLO my lovelies! How is 2012 treating you so far? I thought I better pop by lest you think I had vacated the planet or something. (I almost considered it a few times but totally decided to stay! Besides, space travel really does not fit into my budget at all).

Well, I have not been around for several reasons which I may or may not tell you about in the near future. Today I would like to talk to you about NEW beginnings.

They say all good things must come to an end and in my usual fashion of leaning towards "Miss Pollyanna" tendencies, I am preferring to try and look to the new beginnings rather than the "ending of something good". 

My emotions have been all over the place this week while I put on a happy face for the family and secretly weep at the most ridiculous times only to start once again pumping those positive thoughts through my addled brain and being and feel ok again (for a little while). 

So what's going on? What has me in this emotional roller coaster of "thinking too much", weeping, laughing and hoping all in the same few minutes? Well, my friends......

MY children are going back to school! 

YES! You heard me! Thats not a typo. They are going to go to the local High School and see what its like for all the other local kids! They are going to learn to get up in the morning and actually get dressed. Move from class room to class room and hopefully LEARN something in the process about the BIG world outside. 

So, those of you who know me well, know exactly whats going on inside me, the emotions that are making me feel physically ill at times. sparks of anger which don't last as I am not very good at "angry", the keeping to myself for the past week or so as I don't want to talk about it kind of ME. 

Those who don't know me so well may be sitting there going BUT BUT BUT????????? Yes I know my friends. I am always the first one to stand behind the whole home education cause. I BELIEVE its best for my children.....BUT my children are not mine alone. And in my pursuit of what I believe is right for them, I neglected to respect the rights of the other half of their parentage and even I think my older boy who I really do DO believe will benefit from going to school. 

So rather than go into TOO much thinking mode again. I am going to leave it there. If it does not work out for them, at least we know they tried it and its just down the road. 

And do you know the only concerns that have come up from the boys point of view were....

From Zak.....

* When will I see my friends? (After school and weekends, and you will make more friends too) 

* What about the Un-schooling Camp?  (OH We are still going! I am not missing out on that one, you will miss school for a few days) 

* Can we have chips in our lunch box? (Ummm NO, you can eat what you normally eat! But yes you can buy lunch once a week if you like) 

Adem in his usual fashion is not saying too much at all. He is merely cramming in as much extra "computer" time as he can! 

I am still eeeking and tearing up and worrying about Zak, but as we can see by his "concerns".. He is fine. They both said, they do not want to go but after being told they would have to. They accepted it really quickly and even have moments of looking quite excited at the prospect. 

As for me? Well,  I am slowly getting used to the idea and thinking of things that I can do in ALL my spare time! Would love to think of it as more crochet, knitting and even long lost Cross Stitch time but am leaning more towards more herbal studies time! I guess everything REALLY does happen for a reason now doesn't it? And gee, I may even have time to update my blog more often? Hmmmmm. 

Please send me positive thoughts my friends. I am struggling enough on my own without having the onslaught of why we should not be taking this path. You can't tell me anything I don't already think myself. And as I have always been of the opinion that SCHOOL IS good for some and NOT for others. It depends entirely on personality and learning styles.  I am hoping that this is going to be a positive thing for my boys. In my heart, I know it is right for Adem and I do believe he will do well. I am hoping Zak settles in but if he does not? Well, we all know what works for him at home now don't we? 

Love, Peace and Happiness to all. 

Hugs and Smoochies xoxoxxo