Some of you may have noticed that I switched this blog over to private for a long while. I hope you did not think you were un-invited or anything. Its just that I was feeling rather depressed with the state of things and felt like I had nothing happy to say, so better to say nothing at all. After a few nasty comments on one of my posts that I really took to heart, I gave up. In short, I had forgotten my usual Miss Pollyanna attitude towards many things and did not want to pass on that negativity to you. I guess in a way I decided to take my own advice and step back and take a little time to find myself and breathe.
This is much easier to do when one is not distracted by what everyone else is doing. My general health had declined since last year and our trek into being a school attending family again was a huge adjustment for us, well especially me, feeling the way I do about such matters.
During this time I stepped away from most of my homeschooling and un-schooling friends blogs. I missed them greatly but I found that the more I read, the sadder I became with our own situation. I really needed to focus on making things work here so I stopped following, I stopped reading and I guess I just kept up with those who are friends with me on facebook. It was easier.
In all honesty I began to think I probably should not have gone on the un-schooling camp as it only made me think too much again. We had an AWESOME time though so I am truly happy that we did go. It was so wonderful to catch up with friends and to meet others who I only knew from online and find that they are just as lovely in real life. :-)
Stepping away though, has proven to me that I really needed this time to re-evaluate, work out what it was I wanted from life or more so how I was going to fit it all together so I could return to living my truth while at the same time pleasing others who are always going to be a part of that truth.
I spent a lot of time listening to those around me, acknowledging all the differences between us all, thinking, thinking and thinking some more and then letting go of things that would normally bother me and feeding my thoughts with positive energy.
But mostly I have been working on getting myself healthier, eating, exercising and healing my body and spirit. Therefore healing my mind as well.
I was in a place where I was feeling overwhelmed, sad and unhealthy, where one thing after another in my world seemed to be going against me. So I left and kept it all to myself lest I scare my lovely readers away.
One step at a time I have faced my fears, my worries, my spiritual needs vs my wordly ones and with several pretty strong messages from this universe lately. I am reminded of the person I am inside, the person who a year ago would never have imagined feeding such negativity no matter what. The person who faced every situation with love head on. The person who spoke her mind with truth instead of holding back for fear of upsetting someone.
So with this in mind I am changing my blog name to Karisma Speaks. I intend to write and speak from my heart, from my own truth and hope that my friends have not deserted me in my grumpiness and anti-social state.
I am back my friends and very much looking forward to catching up on all the posts I have missed.
May your lives be filled with Love, Light and Peace at all times.
Hugs and smoochies xoxoxox